Since beginning this blog in January of 2013, I have done my best to keep the content light and fun. Over the years, there have been some short gaps in time where I was busy or the words wouldn’t flow from my mind to the keyboard and that was fine. I was sparing you.
The gap from March 2020 to October 2020 has been the longest comment-free gap by far. Believe me, I’ve wanted to write something and share a recipe but couldn’t think of anything positive to offer. I was hoping things would get better. I was hoping COVID would go away. I even launched a baking business, Kitty Cat Artisan Confections, dedicated to the welfare of cats and other animals in our community.
Don’t misunderstand me. It’s not that I have nothing to be thankful for. I am surrounded by caring friends and family. For this I am so grateful.
Unfortunately, despite all the loving people in the world, there are those who live to remind us that evil exists. My sweet old cat, Bibu, was the victim of animal cruelty on September 23, 2020. Death is hard to deal with and impossible to forget. Every being’s death leaves a sore spot on the hearts of those left behind. The heart hurts for a very long time. Then hopefully it becomes a little less painful. I know this. I’ve been through losses and I have gotten through them.
But it hurts so much more when the death is tragic. It is harder when the thoughts keep you up at night, thinking and thinking, when you no longer want to eat. Instead fear and anxiety eat away at you. It is harder when you want to turn back the clock and re-do that day so that you could have been there, seen something, done something to stop it all from happening. This grief is intense.
It is ironic that on the very same day Kitty Cat Artisan Confections was launched to support the welfare of cats in our community, my Bibu was harmed.
Bibu, I promise you did not die in vain my sweet boy. Whether through Kitty Cat Artisan Confections or via other means, I will continue to help the most vulnerable animals who come into my life. I miss you dearly and am so deeply sorry for your suffering. You will always be in my heart.